I think a week has gone by haha. Shit! Sorry! I've actually been in the process of doing "stuff". Although, sad to report, such "stuff" has also been me stuffing my face full of those delish Peanut Butter Choco Chip cookies I've found off Pinterest. Damn you Pinterest!
I've also been doing something, I think is kind of nerdy BUT felt it needed to be done. I've been in the process of writing some emails to some friends. Old friends that I've had for ages but for some reason, just sorta stopped communicating with. I've been writing emails for the soul purpose of getting in touch and easing my guilt by apologizing for being a less than stellar friend. Needless to say, most have been supportive. I feel guilt can get in the way of certain goals because you figure you're a shitty person so why even try.
I've also been keeping myself, and my children, busy. Well, except today...and yesterday lol. The weather went from gorgeous to cold in the last two days but there have been trips to the park, walks, playing outside, visits with friends, story times, and craft times. It's actually been nice to be out and about. Forgot it's actually preferrable to have a social life instead of being a shut in.
I'll try to update again soon. I promise. Hold me to that!
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Step One
Already falling behind hmm??? I've always been the worst procastinator! However, I have been making a few subtle changes this week.
By the way....are there any diet wines out there??? Ahh fuck it! You have to treat yourself on occasion!
- I joined myfitness pal and have actually been coming in under calories....amazing!
Not quite sure how I've been managing this. Think it's because Weston's eating is finally become a little more stablized. However I have this thing for red meat and salt right now. If I didn't know better I'd think I was pregnant and lacking in iron in sodium. I do know better, however, and think it's just a hormonal thing lol. - I got a hobby!!
I've been trying my hand at crocheting and am actually enjoying it. Careful out there! If I have any followers you may be the winner of a camoflauge dish rag haha. That's my skill level right now and it takes me two days to make one, but dammit!!! I'M DOING IT!! - I'm honing my social skills.
Actually went out for a walk (yes, and exercise) with a friend of mine and her beautiful daughter, tomorrow I'm heading over to a close friend's house so my kids can play with her's, and on Saturday I'm heading for coffee with a friend I haven't seen in awhile. I figure the more I'm out, the less I'm sitting here mindlessly eating.
By the way....are there any diet wines out there??? Ahh fuck it! You have to treat yourself on occasion!
Friday, April 13, 2012
Hobbies
One more post today. Why? Because I skipped a day (not that I actually plan on doing this daily) and this was on my mind and didn't really tie in nicely with the last post.
I think I need a hobby. My hobby, to date, has been baking. I know I can find healthy baking recipes, but it seems to be counter-productive to my cause. If I have food lying around my house, I WILL eat it. I also think I've been eating due to boredom. Boredom? How can I possibly be bored with two kids around?? Well my three year old seems to have a good handle at occupying himself at times (or he's playing with his grandfather) and my baby just wants to roll and play with his toes. So I find myself sitting here a lot, either being told I'm not driving my toy car just right, watching Cars for the umpteenth time, or telling the baby no no don't put THAT in your mouth.
I need something that is for ME. Something I can do to unwind while the kids are in bed or it's ugly out and they're otherwised occupied. Something that'll keep my hands and mind occupied so I'm not shoving food into my face. I just don't know what kind of hobby I should try. I'm thinking maybe knitting or crocheting, but I dunno. I guess it never hurts to try!
I think I need a hobby. My hobby, to date, has been baking. I know I can find healthy baking recipes, but it seems to be counter-productive to my cause. If I have food lying around my house, I WILL eat it. I also think I've been eating due to boredom. Boredom? How can I possibly be bored with two kids around?? Well my three year old seems to have a good handle at occupying himself at times (or he's playing with his grandfather) and my baby just wants to roll and play with his toes. So I find myself sitting here a lot, either being told I'm not driving my toy car just right, watching Cars for the umpteenth time, or telling the baby no no don't put THAT in your mouth.
I need something that is for ME. Something I can do to unwind while the kids are in bed or it's ugly out and they're otherwised occupied. Something that'll keep my hands and mind occupied so I'm not shoving food into my face. I just don't know what kind of hobby I should try. I'm thinking maybe knitting or crocheting, but I dunno. I guess it never hurts to try!
Look At Me! Already Running!!
To catch up on my posts that is! So I'm a bit behind, don't ask me why. I have no valid excuse except for a long hot bath one night and my husband not making that much of an effort to leave his parents' the next. Okay, the truth is...I've been BAD. Very bad! I'm not exactly proud of myself. In fact, I'm not proud of myself, what-so-ever. I've even thought of lies to put in my food diary that's how bad it is.
It always gets like this around here. We'll hit a lazy or busy period and suddenly we don't have time to eat properly it seems. It's horrible and things can't go on like this. So now comes the part I suck at...organization. I know if I organize myself it'll help, a lot! I tried one week to make up an eating plan. It went terrifically, until we decided to leave town for the weekend at the last minute and then other things came up. Excuses, excuses...and I'm full of them. Maybe that's it! I'm not fat, just full of excuses. *sigh*
So, I'm diving in...head first next week. New plan of attack.
- Meal plan. ALL meals.
- Prep ahead of time.
- Grocery shop for those items, and only those the weekend before.
Weds: Thurs:
Yogurt Water
Banana Chai tea latte
Water Banana Choc Chip muffin
Turkey Sandwich Spicy Chicken Sandwich
Carrots Fries
Coffee 1 cream, 1 sugar Coke
Wings 3 small slices of deli pizza
Cactus Cut Potatoes 2 cans pepsi
Bandera Bread Water (x2)
Pepsi
Beer
Water (x2)
I think it's time to let the ladies in on this...so they can slap me around!
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
This Is NOT the Start I had Dreamed About....
Is this the font I used last time? I'm unsure. Ahhh, we'll just go with it.
So I started out yesterday morning with good intentions. Made my coffee with the recommended serving of creamer, no sugar. It was a bit bitter but not horrible. Since I started using the flavored creamer, I've scratched the sugar anyway. Guess I was using a bit more than a tablespoon creamer though. Oops! Toast, homemade so no icky preservatives , just a light covering of peanut butter and a banana. Yay me!
Then a friend came over. I realized I hadn't had lunch and was going to throw together something quick. She suggested going out for lunch. UGH! So, I had a plate full of fatty fried fish and chips (but hey, there was a salad, so I did have veggies). We walked there and back, so that has to give me some sort of credit. Okay, okay, I have a preschooler and walking with a preschooler has no calorie burning involved because you move at a snail's pace, stopping to look at each and every thing and pick up the cool rocks along the way. So lunch was kind of thrown out the window, but that's okay...I'm dabbling right now anyway. Remember? I said there were a lot of Easter left overs lying around...there's supper to make up for it.
So it's getting around supper time, my lovely husband runs up to use the bathroom (it's going somewhere, trust me) and when he comes back downstairs he has the pamphlet to the Chinese food restaurant we order from in his hand. He had decided Chinese would be good and ordered that. Mmmm just what I needed. So day #1 of dabbling has not gotten off to a great start. I shall try try again! I can't let this get me down, I need to do this!
So to help me out, I'm going to start posting my food journal so once again, I'm held accountable for the none of you out there. Here it goes:
Cup of coffee with 1 tbsp creamer
2 small slices of toast with about 1 tbsp PB
1 med banana
Glass of water
Glass of water
2 pieces of battered deep fried fish slathered in tartar sauce
Big serving of fries with a puddle of gravy on the side
Slice of greasy cheesetoast
Small side of tossed salad with italian dressing
Glass of Pepsi
Can of Pepsi
Slice of blueberry coffee cake
A few chocolate eggs
Chicken fried rice
Chicken chow mein
Sweet and sour pork
Beef vegetables
Glass of water (x2)
Chocolate covered ice cream bar
Glass of water (x2)
Blah. That makes me queasy just reading that, never mind eating it. My water consumption is about the only positive thing I have going for me. However, today is a new day, tomorrow is another and somewhere I'll find the balance.
DAMN YOU SUGAR AND FAT FOR BEING SO TASTY!!!
So I started out yesterday morning with good intentions. Made my coffee with the recommended serving of creamer, no sugar. It was a bit bitter but not horrible. Since I started using the flavored creamer, I've scratched the sugar anyway. Guess I was using a bit more than a tablespoon creamer though. Oops! Toast, homemade so no icky preservatives , just a light covering of peanut butter and a banana. Yay me!
Then a friend came over. I realized I hadn't had lunch and was going to throw together something quick. She suggested going out for lunch. UGH! So, I had a plate full of fatty fried fish and chips (but hey, there was a salad, so I did have veggies). We walked there and back, so that has to give me some sort of credit. Okay, okay, I have a preschooler and walking with a preschooler has no calorie burning involved because you move at a snail's pace, stopping to look at each and every thing and pick up the cool rocks along the way. So lunch was kind of thrown out the window, but that's okay...I'm dabbling right now anyway. Remember? I said there were a lot of Easter left overs lying around...there's supper to make up for it.
So it's getting around supper time, my lovely husband runs up to use the bathroom (it's going somewhere, trust me) and when he comes back downstairs he has the pamphlet to the Chinese food restaurant we order from in his hand. He had decided Chinese would be good and ordered that. Mmmm just what I needed. So day #1 of dabbling has not gotten off to a great start. I shall try try again! I can't let this get me down, I need to do this!
So to help me out, I'm going to start posting my food journal so once again, I'm held accountable for the none of you out there. Here it goes:
Cup of coffee with 1 tbsp creamer
2 small slices of toast with about 1 tbsp PB
1 med banana
Glass of water
Glass of water
2 pieces of battered deep fried fish slathered in tartar sauce
Big serving of fries with a puddle of gravy on the side
Slice of greasy cheesetoast
Small side of tossed salad with italian dressing
Glass of Pepsi
Can of Pepsi
Slice of blueberry coffee cake
A few chocolate eggs
Chicken fried rice
Chicken chow mein
Sweet and sour pork
Beef vegetables
Glass of water (x2)
Chocolate covered ice cream bar
Glass of water (x2)
Blah. That makes me queasy just reading that, never mind eating it. My water consumption is about the only positive thing I have going for me. However, today is a new day, tomorrow is another and somewhere I'll find the balance.
DAMN YOU SUGAR AND FAT FOR BEING SO TASTY!!!
Monday, April 9, 2012
The Beginning
So here I am. At the very beginning. I'm doing this here because I'm not sure I could do it alone without someone holding me accountable (even if it's invisible someones). So I'll start with a bit of an introduction:
My name is Roxi and I'm a 32 year old mother of two very precious boys age 3 and 6 months. I'm married to a wonderful man and we're just about to celebrate two years of marriage. I also have what's know to some as "a weight problem". Let's be honest. I'm fat as fuck! Weighed myself at the ILs and the scale read 250 lbs. Sure I just had a baby 6 months ago, but 3 months ago I was 235 lbs. Does that bother me? Yes and no. No because I'm secure enough in who I am and have enough people who love me as is to know that weight really has little to do with influencing those around you. Yes, however because I know that it's going to have a negative effect on my health (I'm surprised I've been so healthy) and a negative effect on my ability to interact with my kids.
This is why I'm here. I'm making all of YOU to hold me accountable for my actions (okay so there's no YOU out there yet, but I have hope). I find I always work better under someone. If I'm doing the work for myself, I'll have a glass of water and a carrot, pat myself on the back and think, "for all my hard work, I'll have a slice of cake and a can of Pepsi!". If I have a feeling I'll let someone down by having a slice of cake and a Pepsi, I'll work that much harder to get past that craving.
I'm not starting right this second. Easter was just yesterday, you'll have to forgive me this time as I plow through some left over stuffing and one more slice of cake (and one more mini Cadbury Creme Egg). I also have to formulate my plan AND figure out what I'm going to start eating. Apparently what I have been eating is NOT working at losing this ass of mine (or thighs, jiggly gut, or "bingo wings" a term coined by a good friend's brother about arm fat). The only thing I know I am going to do is post a pic. Something along these lines:
And I'll add a caption that'll say something along the lines of:
What is more important? A cupcake or this?
I hope it'll be highly motivational but I have to be honest, some days when the 3 yr old is being a terror and the 6 mth old won't stop crying, I may consider the cupcake more important. However, it's more likely this tactic will only fail if the pic and caption is stuck to the side of a red wine bottle. Hey! Don't judge! Somedays, you'd do the same if you have kids this age.
My name is Roxi and I'm a 32 year old mother of two very precious boys age 3 and 6 months. I'm married to a wonderful man and we're just about to celebrate two years of marriage. I also have what's know to some as "a weight problem". Let's be honest. I'm fat as fuck! Weighed myself at the ILs and the scale read 250 lbs. Sure I just had a baby 6 months ago, but 3 months ago I was 235 lbs. Does that bother me? Yes and no. No because I'm secure enough in who I am and have enough people who love me as is to know that weight really has little to do with influencing those around you. Yes, however because I know that it's going to have a negative effect on my health (I'm surprised I've been so healthy) and a negative effect on my ability to interact with my kids.
This is why I'm here. I'm making all of YOU to hold me accountable for my actions (okay so there's no YOU out there yet, but I have hope). I find I always work better under someone. If I'm doing the work for myself, I'll have a glass of water and a carrot, pat myself on the back and think, "for all my hard work, I'll have a slice of cake and a can of Pepsi!". If I have a feeling I'll let someone down by having a slice of cake and a Pepsi, I'll work that much harder to get past that craving.
I'm not starting right this second. Easter was just yesterday, you'll have to forgive me this time as I plow through some left over stuffing and one more slice of cake (and one more mini Cadbury Creme Egg). I also have to formulate my plan AND figure out what I'm going to start eating. Apparently what I have been eating is NOT working at losing this ass of mine (or thighs, jiggly gut, or "bingo wings" a term coined by a good friend's brother about arm fat). The only thing I know I am going to do is post a pic. Something along these lines:
And I'll add a caption that'll say something along the lines of:
What is more important? A cupcake or this?
I hope it'll be highly motivational but I have to be honest, some days when the 3 yr old is being a terror and the 6 mth old won't stop crying, I may consider the cupcake more important. However, it's more likely this tactic will only fail if the pic and caption is stuck to the side of a red wine bottle. Hey! Don't judge! Somedays, you'd do the same if you have kids this age.
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