The Beginning

So here I am.  At the very beginning.  I'm doing this here because I'm not sure I could do it alone without someone holding me accountable (even if it's invisible someones).  So I'll start with a bit of an introduction:

My name is Roxi and I'm a 32 year old mother of two very precious boys age 3 and 6 months.  I'm married to a wonderful man and we're just about to celebrate two years of marriage.  I also have what's know to some as "a weight problem".  Let's be honest.  I'm fat as fuck!  Weighed myself at the ILs and the scale read 250 lbs.   Sure I just had a baby 6 months ago, but 3 months ago I was 235 lbs.  Does that bother me?  Yes and no.  No because I'm secure enough in who I am and have enough people who love me as is to know that weight really has little to do with influencing those around you.  Yes, however because I know that it's going to have a negative effect on my health (I'm surprised I've been so healthy) and a negative effect on my ability to interact with my kids. 

This is why I'm here.  I'm making all of YOU to hold me accountable for my actions (okay so there's no YOU out there yet, but I have hope).   I find I always work better under someone.  If I'm doing the work for myself,  I'll have a glass of water and a carrot, pat myself on the back and think, "for all my hard work, I'll have a slice of cake and a can of Pepsi!".  If I have a feeling I'll let someone down by having a slice of cake and a Pepsi, I'll work that much harder to get past that craving. 



I'm not starting right this second.  Easter was just yesterday, you'll have to forgive me this time as I plow through some left over stuffing and one more slice of cake (and one more mini Cadbury Creme Egg).  I also have to formulate my plan AND figure out what I'm going to start eating.  Apparently what I have been eating is NOT working at losing this ass of mine (or thighs, jiggly gut, or "bingo wings" a term coined by a good friend's brother about arm fat).  The only thing I know I am going to do is post a pic.  Something along these lines:

And I'll add a caption that'll say something along the lines of:
What is more important?  A cupcake or this?  
I hope it'll be highly motivational but I have to be honest, some days when the 3 yr old is being a terror and the 6 mth old won't stop crying, I may consider the cupcake more important.  However, it's more likely this tactic will only fail if the pic and caption is stuck to the side of a red wine bottle.  Hey!  Don't judge!  Somedays, you'd do the same if you have kids this age.